I Am One Of The Lucky Ones

I am one of the lucky ones. I guess that I have always known this, but I have been reminded this more so lately than any other time in my life. I say this because I am married to one of the

"good guys".

Sure, I may complain from time to time about how he does not throw his dirty clothes in the hamper or how he snores like a bear at night, but at the end of the day, he is an amazing dad and husband. He is so giving to everyone and really is a person that would give his shirt off his back. He cares so much about everything that he does and always gives 100% to whatever he is doing and whomever he is with. I know that I lucked out BIG TIME!!

Recently, he was diagnosed with an enlarged heart. This is a result of a bacteria that infected his heart a few years ago. I thought that the diagnosis of "enlarged heart", while serious and scary, was in a way very appropriate for him as he has the biggest and most generous heart of anyone that I know.

This diagnosis has been hard for all of us to swallow and comes with a lot of doctors visits and tests. It has slowed him down and in some ways has changed the course of his life. Every day I wish that I could take this all away from him and make him and his heart better.

Of course, like anyone who has a loved one who is sick, we want to take it away, but know that we cannot. I have spent some time wallowing in this and finally, on a walk that I took by myself to gather my thoughts, came up with some inspiration to hopefully help get us all through this!

While it is so easy to worry and be sad about him being sick, I have decided that it will make us all "better" if I concentrate on letting him know every day just how much I love him and how wonderful I think that he is. This is my new life's goal. I will work at doing something each day for him so that he knows just how much he means to me. It may just be something small, but I don't want a day to go by without him knowing how great he is.

So, this blog will be part of the journey. I may not get a darn person to read it, but I who knows, it may inspire someone else too! In a world that seems to be so negative right now, I want this to be my little glowing light! Jeremy, you are amazing and I love you!!